Tuesday, October 16, 2007 ♥
TWINII♥
sad laa
this few days
had nightmares almost everyday
dreamt that i will drop into NA next year
how??
nobody can help me now...
only when fairies came by and miracles happen...
i wrote about i was going to play with the chemicals with teacher warn us that it is poisonous n..
slightly flammable
and my partner held my hands to stop me from mixing the chemicals
but i ACCIDENTALLY pour onto her
and cause her face to burn and leave a scar
is this carelessness?
i dun think so
how laa????
i had already wrote out of point!!
my compo should write about my carelessness
this few days
thinking of these stuffs [of course is not public talks lol]
is driving me mad!!!
i dunno how to face the world after this year if i got into NA
for ppl lyk yaohui n crystal or mayb zhao qian
they NV noe
they hadnt try b4 when they are going to drop into NA
and those NAs lyk TWINKII
do they noe??
i dun think so either....
doreen is out of danger
she scored quite well for CA2
hope she will b fine
and stay in express with her fwens
best wishes for her (:
i felt very lonely
feel lyk crying
but y i canot cry
after all these pains i went thru'????
i felt useless
my mum always said that jus try ur best
if u canot cope jus let go
u think i wan to let go??
YES!!
im the one who is scared of death and scared of losing
so wad???
does it really matter?
i jus want have better grades
and mayb jus a this little contribute
i may not regret when i get old!
jus now shower
thot of something
i was frustrated with my compo that i wrote out of point
jus thinking that y i couldnt jus write that
i was cooking something then suddenly my fwens called to chat with me
chat for half an hour
smelt something that cause me breathing difficulties
and find out that the kitchen is burning..........
OR
i pour the chemicals but mix the wrong chemicals
the test-tube feels very hot and somehow threw the test-tube on my partner
thats carelessness
coz i pour the wrong chemical
but i nv think of something...
i still hv my report writing...
my report writing can save me
haix
TWINKII said that i will stay in express with her institution
but i think that i will drop
we bet that if i drop to NA
she mus give me $5
n if i stay i mus gif her $5
i really hope i can gif her $5
i hope miracles will come by
n fairies DO exist
listened to the sweet sound @ 7:17 PM